carrying on with the dating stuff

anyways, i feel like i have been saying "im not going to date until im 35" for a very along time. as in, as a conscious decision.

i hate to say "ugh my generation is so ____" but idk i think because i have been forced to mature since i was 13 years old, when i do think about dating people closer in age to me i just get annoyed.... and its no fault on the person, i just have things i need to work through. relying on your parents to cook dinner for you isnt a bad thing if you still live with them, im just used to doing everything on my own so im not used to it.

besides this, i do think i am very picky and choosey but i do this because i value romance and companionship. please dont waste my time! one thing i have learnt is that i dont think i would want to date somebody who is close with their family. i think that alot of lesbians/gay people my age forget that people are very much still bigots and we dont all have accepting families.

my mum is dead anyway so i literally have no desire to date somebody who wants to be part of my family.... but i have noticed loads of people think youre weird for not wanting to keep my family around when it comes to dating. my ex was like that. he wanted his family involved in everything and that is something i just did not want. i want to run away with my partner and start over. to get away from the pressures and homophobia from my family lol. it will always be hard for me to be comfortable with the traditional family unit.

this is why i keep saying "i dont think i could date until im 30". lets sort ourselves out first and act like real adults! again, not the fault of people who are in their early 20s, its normal to want to be young and turnt at this age, i dont have a desire for that, which is why i think i need to be content with waiting.